till thomas comes home, we get married, and we move. My little Caleb is 2 months old now. He means so much to me I can't wait to be a family.

Today is my due date....I haven't recieved a letter from thomas is over a week, and the last phone call was on June 20th...This sucks.His letters were what was keeping me going..I'm depressed all over again. Im a nervous wreck about giving birth and taking care of this baby without him being here.

im pathetic...

so much...I dont know what to do with myself. I feel so sick.. i've broken out in a rash, the baby never kicks....i need thomas back home...its been almost 24 hours since i have heard his voice

i'm a wreck

help...im not strong enough for this

Thomas leaves for basic, our baby boy is due July 2nd. Thomas won't meet our son until he is 4 months old.

leaves in 2 months, on june 10th. and our baby boy will be here in 3 months or less. His name is Caleb Thomas Conrad, and he already looks like his daddy on the sonogram